Choosing Joy

“Count it all joy, my brothers and sisters, when you encounter trials of various kinds, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have it’s perfect result, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James 1:2-4

In November 2016, these words became my constant companions. My body was consumed with toxic poisoning and my world changed drastically. 

I had been struggling with some weird health issues for several months prior to November, especially my memory and ability to speak, and I was concerned but blew it off. I attributed it all to the significant stress we had been going through for a couple of years with building our ministry, developing our ministry center and then having to leave it all to move to Kansas with my husband’s job. It was a tough transition, to put it mildly.

We had been in Kansas for a year on the day I finally couldn’t ignore the symptoms any longer. My husband was on a trip and I was home alone. I woke up with every pore in my body screaming in pain, feeling like I was being stabbed by needles head to toe. It was a Sunday and I knew my best friend was going to be at church and I needed help.

I stood in the shower screaming like I have never screamed before. Asking God to take my life now if I was going to have to live like this. I didn’t know what was happening but it was beyond my ability to cope. The pain eased enough to get me to church where I got prayer, which helped significantly.

The next day I went to the local doctor in our little town and she told me that I had been poisoned by the well water at the house. She gave me suggestions to help the skin pain and referred me to a bunch of other doctors for all the other symptoms. Every system in my body was being impacted and not in a little way but in a life changing way.

The pieces started to fit together. I had been bathing in the water for a year but just three weeks prior to this I had started drinking the water through a “special” water system we had installed. The slow poisoning through showering accelerated when I started drinking the water. By mid-December the toxins had completely broken through the blood/brain barrier and I lost contact with portions of my brain.

It was just a matter of days after that day in November that I heard Holy Spirit say to me in the wee hours of a hellish night, “count it all joy.” I clung to those words and when I looked them up in the Bible I found the promise that it would all have a “perfect result.”  This promise has become my constant companion, along with some others, that have seen me on this journey to being redeemed, restored and renewed in body, soul, and spirit. Some days for hours all I could do was say, “Thank you, Father.” and my spirit would fill up and overtake the pain and confusion and fear that was consuming my body and soul. It was the perfect solution and got me through.

This website is birthed out of my journey moving into wholeness. It is the discovery of having a “Wholesome Home” and living a life that brings life. It has been a journey in discovering natural healing sources, deep faith that can overcome some of the worst challenges life can throw at you, the power of wholesome food and water to restore the body and the joy of knowing that through it all there is a powerful promise by a loving Heavenly Father that we are never without Him and these tough experiences have a purpose. That filled me with the joy needed to endure even the toughest of times.

Join me in walking this journey. I hope what I have learned about how to be restored in body, soul and spirit will bless your life too and help you to choose joy.

~ Tamara

6 thoughts on “Choosing Joy

  1. I had no idea Sweetie that you were going through such pain for so long. I know you shared a little but, your blog has certainly expressed even more fully your pain. You are always in our prayers and we cover you now with the blood of Jesus to give you complete healing in all areas of your life.

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  2. Tamara: What a journey! I am so excited and looking forward to reading more. Your words are so encouraging here as I am sure there are details along the way which will inspire many. I see you writing many books and bringing hope and inspiration into the greyness of many situations for many individuals. I am inspired! Run, fun, run with the vision and write, write, write it down! Love and appreciate you, Anita

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